Goodbyes aren't for me.

I'm quite sure that I'm going to be in over my head soon.
Dating is fun, yes. However, I don't know how some people do it...
Especially with more than a handful of guys on the "Prospect Page", blowing
up your phone with texts/phone calls/whatev. It's like, are any of them even REALLY a possibility? And if not, what the hell am I doing? I think I'd rather just become a nun.

Yeah Yeah, I laughed at that too.

Jen is leaving me soon and this devastates my life. I don't know what I'm going to do without her. Between having reality TV marathons in her room, drunken house parties, random (though, they aren't so random nowadays) late-night visits to Cafe Coco, singing Danity Kane and Taylor Swift in the car constantly... *sighs* This is going to be a bittersweet summer for me. Bitter b/c yet another "significant other" is leaving me for Canada. Vancouver is all I can say to you, Jen... ;)

I had a show, which no one was at the other night at Exit/In. Not that that would really break my heart or anything, but I've played in Nashville long enough to know that there are some INCREDIBLE, kick-ass, high-energy, totally packed shows...and then, some that are not so much. However, this was a benefit show, so I was sad that more people didn't show up for the cause. I wanted them to make money!

I play on Thursday at Fuel. I'm pretty stoked. However, it's Adam's last show with me. He too is moving away, back to Georgia. Between Jen, Adam, Allyssa, and now...possibly Chelsee and Rob...freakin-A. Couldn't you all just wait until I'm too famous and too busy to be so dependant on our friendships?!

Speaking of busy...
Sage House hired a new song plugger, whos pretty much a big deal and the best in the business. Super expensive too. However, he definitely goes that extra mile...helping his clients network, bringing industry folks out to their shows, setting them up with good co-writes, etc. It's pretty awesome. He's worked with us less than a week and labels are falling in love with some of my songs that never really had anyone's attention before (Rain On The Windshield, The Only Thing Harder Than Leaving, etc.) and I'm already set up on several co-writes AND...I'm going to some Warner/Chappel writing workshop next week and getting hooked up with all sorts of people. Crazy, right?! Kim and Susan told me yesterday that high school is over now. Apparently it's time for me to be retarded "focused", which, I needed to do anyway. And now that I'll have pratically NO MORE FRIENDS LEFT IN TENNESSEE, this should be easy. Haha.

I'm pretty sad that I'm not allowed to wear sweat pants to work everyday now though....
This is going to be a huge adjustment for me.

P.S. My trip to Michigan was GREAT! My brother was super adorable and just stole the show! His character was definitely the funniest....my god, when did he grow up? He looked like such a man up there. His personality just floors me. I was ridiculously proud. Check out the photos on my personal MySpace Page! I went out to dinner with a bunch of girls from high school, so that was fun. Saw Ryan Saturday night too, which was surprisingly drama-free. I can't believe I'm in such a different head space now. I never thought I'd be able to be around him and nothing happen between us...whether it was physical or some drama-filled conversation/fight. But nothing. I felt strong, I felt good, I felt grown up and moved on from it. (Probably b/c all the drama from my LAST relationship over-shadows anything that could have even POSSIBLY happened with Ryan last weekend. )

Surprisingly though, I miss Michigan. And I rarely ever do. I miss my siblings b/c they are growing up so fast and I just want to be there to help them, to mentor them, to let them learn from my mistakes. I want to be with my Grandma b/c I can't stand the thought of her someday not being here. I want to be with my Emma b/c she worships me and I want to be looked up to like that from a girl so young, so little, so innocent to know any better ;)