I hate the sun.

Everywhere I go, there's "couple this" and "couple that". When did all of my friends get into relationships? And by all my friends, I mean, ones I see on a consistant basis. Here's my problem with this...

• I'm always the girl that brings around the "new guy" to be judged. More times than not, this boy does not pass the test. Which, is fine, that's not even the problem. It's just I want the "boyfriend" that I don't have to worry if he impresses or not b/c he's already 'in' the group. Maybe I should stop dating assholes...? Which brings me to my next point...
• Assholes are the only ones that come at me these days. Or it's the "nice guy"....the "way too nice" guy. Why can't I just have a mixture of both? Is the SO impossible?!
• My roommate's boyfriend is practically living with us now too. Which, again, wouldn't be that big of an issue if I wasn't SO TOTALLY SINGLE! So I hear them laughing or cooking in the kitchen or hanging out in her room and I just want to shoot myself b/c I'm like, uhhh...give me this, please. I actually had to leave the house and go for an hour long walk with my dogs b/c I couldn't deal with it.

I think that all of this is being stirred up b/c all of my "potentials" have majorly disappointed me this weekend. Jake, well, we knew that was bound to happen anyway so I'm not even going into that... Then I run into the guy I've been obsessing over for weeks at Tin Roof last night, and it was the awkward "Hi", side hug, then him and his brother apparently left the bar while us girls ran to the bathroom right as we entered the place. (When you're drunk, you have a one-track mind...and that mind was focused on peeing.) So needless to say, when I came out to look for him and he was nowhere to be found, I was completely bummed out.

My managers told me and Chelsee over lunch yesterday that when you demand better, then you get it. I feel like I'm settling for dating less than what I want. Therefore, when the guy(s) screw up and don't get why I'm mad, it's because that's the bar I've set...that's the low standard they are required to meet. And it sucks b/c most of us girls, when we get into a rut, when we get lonely enough...we settle for less than we deserve because it's better than nothing. I have to keep reminding myself that nothing is better than asshole. B/c the last thing I need is to get hurt again, or hurt someone else b/c I'm just settling with them until something better comes along.

Hate. Life. Today.
Thank God, "Desperate Housewives" is on tonight.