I thrive on insanity.

It's true.
I do.

I thrive on the chaos that has become my life here lately. It's "crunch month", which means, like 2 summers ago...I've been working hard on finishing a brand-new CD AND trying to pull everything together for this year's CMA Music Festival here in Nashville! Taking on both of these tasks has proved rather trying, but I'm doing it.

It really feels like it just snuck up on me, without warning! I've become such a procrasinator lately, it's ridiculous. The website/MySpace launch, getting the booth together, organizing these shows...we did it all so last-minute, I'm kind of beating my head against the wall with it all. However, hopefully the lesson is learned and I won't do this again. AND, it seems as though everything might actually just come together in the end. I'll be so forever grateful if it indeed does come off smoothly.

I'm launching my new 7 song EP, "Lovers & Liars" in less than 2 weeks. I held the finished project in my hand the other day, it was pretty cool. Don't think I'm as excited about the launch of this one as I was about "Lonely At The Bottom" though. Maybe b/c it's an EP and not a 16 song CD like the last one...maybe b/c we're doing so much of it digitally and I'm having a hard time not having put a lot of effort into the packaging, the insert, the lyrics/credits/Thank You's. Either way though, it's GREAT music...it's music that I stand by 2000% It was fun to write these songs, it was fun to go into the studio and hear them come to life, it's been fun playing them out at live shows for months now...I'm definitely beyond ready to get it in the hands of fans and have them enjoy what I've been living with for awhile now. So bring it! Get inside my head, go through a mini-timeline of my life in the last 2 years (no one could EVER say it was ever dull or drama-free).

Jen is in town and I'm super excited to be hanging out with her and the girls this weekend. We don't get to do "girls nights" much anymore these days. I still try to see my friends, but it seems like everybody's got their own thing going on. We're all "grown-ups" now...busy with other stuff, not dependant on our girlfriends anymore. It's still a somewhat difficult transition for me personally, b/c I LOVE my girls...however, some of them I feel like I have to jump through hoops of fire for just to grab a quick coffee. Oh well...I've got plenty going on anyway.

Nick and I are still going strong. I spent all last weekend with him and his parents while they were in town. We went out to eat several times, to the Nashville Zoo, to the Adventure Science Center, grilled out at the house, played frisbee golf, hung with my dogs...it was a great weekend. It really solidified a lot for me with him. The past is a VERY hard thing to get over but I'm still moving forward. I try not to go back or stay stagnate, even though things come up that would love nothing more than to push me back into that painful past. But I know things are getting better. We both knew this wouldn't be easy when we embarked on this road...again. But it really is night and day. I have no doubt that this person is not the person I knew before, he's better in every way. Knowing what I know about him now, I love him even more and have no doubt that he loves me. It's a glorious thing.

Now, if I could just balance a career that keeps moving onward and upward, a healthy and happy relationship with Nick, time with my girls, still be a good mom to my doggies, and take care of ME too (working out, church, relaxation time)...life would be perfect.

I think I'm getting there.
;)